girastina

how some people can be so negative.  Yeah, bad things happen and it sucks…a lot, but things will get better and it could have been A LOT worse.

One bad grade or one little mistake or a bad day is nothing. Now, if your whole life has been one big failure and nothing you do seems to help, then yeah you have grounds on which to complain.

As cliché as it sounds, nobody’s perfect. All you can do it work around the failures and mishaps to make it better, when you sit around and complain it fixes nothing.

Sorry if I sound heartless and unsympathetic, sometimes I just find it hard to empathize with people.

So I had my first physics test today (or rather, yesterday, Sep. 29th) for PHYS 201. I try not to have expectations for how well I do on tests because when I think I do well, it ends up badly and when I think I do poorly…I really did do poorly :[

I’ll just wait it out and see…the best expectations are no expectations, right? :/

I don’t remember my dreams very often…like ever, BUT last night I had these weird/crazy ones :O

It starts out with me getting ready to go skydiving (idk why) and it’s like this huge thing, all over the papers and stuff.  For some reason, though, I am the host of Dirty Jobs (what?) D:  So I get on the plane, I don’t even remember it going up in the air, and as I’m preparing to jump I notice a cat in my parachute bag :O  So instead of taking it out and leaving it on the plane I just jump off (LOLWUT)

So there I am falling, I don’t ever remember opening my parachute, but the next thing I know I’m on the ground safe and sound trying to get the cat out of the bag (c wut i did thar?)  Then as I’m doing that the host of Dirty Jobs walks over (I guess we’re not the same person anymore) and asks if he can have the cat (I guess he’s a cat person haha).  I hand the cat over and then I’m reading a newspaper (idk why) and the headline says “HOST OF DIRTY JOBS HAS OVER 92 ENDANGERED SPECIES” (HAHAHAHAWUUUUT) I guess that cat was #92? >.> I was kinda mad at him after that for taking my cat >:[

That’s where that dream ends, the second one isn’t AS random.  I was in some gym place having like a physical exam thing.  I’m running on this treadmill, but it’s more like REALLY slow walking because the freakin thing is set to a really low speed, but even so they wanted me to “look” like I was running.  So when I get done with that I’m wiping the non-existent sweat from my face when this dude I knew in high school walks up to me, says hi, and gives me a hug (for those who went to school with me, it was Gage Harris…ikr what the heck?)  As I’m checking/signing out, I see one of my cousins there with her mom and one of her aunts (for some reason though, my cousin looked like a girl I went to high school with, too, but I still knew she was my cousin) So I go over and her aunt says something in Spanish (even though irl she doesn’t speak it) and then my cousin says “Our computer keeps beeping” Then I start spouting computer stuff trying to help her diagnose it (stuff about HDDs and drivers and stuff lol) Then her mom comes over and I say “hi” then my alarm went off~

:3

So I got a job on campus.  Really easy, minimum wage, etc.  I think Ima get another job, maybe Toys R Us and as incentive to hire me I’ll agree to work during Christmas >:D

Also, I hate physics.  I do not understand that crap and I have a test Tuesday over five chapters of material I barely know half of :C

I have decided to study abroad the Fall 2010 semester in Germany and then my friend, Alison, and I are going to do another study abroad for four weeks in Japan the summer of 2011 :D  Hopefully everything goes as planned and we get to go!

I really need to manage my time better…I need to bring my GPA up at least a point :[  It is way too low right now…

BUT good news is I think organic chemistry may not be that bad, as long as I study and stay on top of my work I think I can pull off an A :D

Whew, I’m glad I only have 12 hours this semester~

When I get bored, I like to do Facebook quizzes. One particular quiz, “What Are You Hiding From Yourself” looked interesting because I’m drawn to quizzes that try to figure out your “deep thoughts and emotions” with 10-20 pointless questions. So anyway, I take the quiz, get “Sadness” as the result (oh noes, so sad) and my step mother makes a comment about how I’ve been through so much…and then suggests therapy?  I’m not sure whether or not she was kidding, but I’m pretty sure I don’t need therapy.

I’ve had my share of problems, but nothing I haven’t been able to cope with or sort out myself…sometimes I wonder if people think I’m way more complicated than I really am.  I’m not that hard to figure out.